Lithium


Seasons change here and so do I. It seems as if my mind becomes synchronized with a world that I'm familiar with but not in tune with. It's a strange dimension. One that I want to be in all the time. My mindset is different. I feel nervous during this time. Driving with the windows down and thoughts race throughout my head. They are all about missing out on things. Being at the wrong place at the wrong time. As the cars drive by and the people walk by, I wonder why I have not yet entered their world. I have a sense that things are passing me by and I'm not meant to be up to the speed all these people are running at. Getting all the material things. Going to the depots. Arranging this and that. Getting the garden ready. Cutting the lawn and waving at the person across the street.

I like driving with the windows down. I like the open air while I'm flying by at fast speeds. If I ever tried to figure out why these things happen to me, they'll stop happening.